Still and Strong

My heart is just racing, beating fast, nonstop. Thoughts are brusting in my mind, like atomic bombs. I try to delete them, I try to avoid them, crush them.

I currently am kind of lost. I don't really know where to go, what to do or who to count on with. Getting from A to B requires walking, moving along a road that you know where it leads but it's muddy, dusty, dirty. A path where each journey hides a challenge, and the biggest of them all is accepting yourself. Accepting you is the only push, the only way, the only who's saving from things happening outside there... And those storms inside yourself. A path where everything that's not helping you to grow is going to fall apart, and this is terrifiying, it leaves you without your comfort zone... It may even leaves you hopeless, as you feel now, with nowhere to hold on to. This path of truth and enlightment hurts, it gives a new light to things arround you, letting you see them as they really are, not as you wish them to be like. Painful? Raw truths are sometimes like that, and they give us choices. Two choices:

1. Not accepting them: deny, questioning, asking why, taking the victim role, staying in the same place. NOT EVOLVING.

2. Accepting them: hurting, realization, changing, focusing on ourselves, moving forward, gratitude. GROWTH.

Sometimes you even choose both of them in a slow and hard process that requires most of your energy to go through. I've been in this situation before, in a lower scale. This time is different, it's a new and big jump, full of faith... Not in others but me. Not because I'm trying to change others, but because accepting what you don't like and staying still and strong like Atlas.